How to stay connected with nature and myself
09.04.2015 - 26.05.2015
This is my fourth dawn at home. I come around each day the same way, listening for the sounds of animals, thinking of the dusty, foggy or misty sunrise and imagining the animals appearing out of the dark of night into the first rays of sunlight. The beautiful sunrise appears before me.
I hold the images in my mind and replay them over and over as I become aware of my present location. The only animals here are the two dogs next to my legs and the subtle chirping of birds waking up behind the house. The birds are not loud enough.
I cannot hear the beautiful sound of being in the wilderness, nor can I smell the smells. Sage, mixing with the heaviness of the morning air.
I close my eyes again and bring back the images, the movement of the vehicle driving on the sandy trails, rocky paths, over small bushes and though the shallow water. I try to bring back the memory of the herds of elephants throwing dirt, drinking water, pulling up chunks of grass with their long trunks and stomping on whatever growth is in their way. I love their animated movements, connection to family and their ability to stay on task eating from sun up until sundown to sustain themselves. Nothing distracts them, nothing gets in their way.
I see the sunrising through the window. It will be a beautiful day in Africa and I will not be there.
I will cling to the memories and most of all the way it made me feel to be surrounded by the wild without interruption by anything else. The connection with nature, caring about the land, the animals and the people and nothing else matters in that moment.
Being there helped me reconnect with my self, no distractions, no decisions to be made, just an opportunity to be sensitive to the environment and the beauty of this planet in a way that is very rare at home but not impossible at home. A walk in the woods, or by a lake or on the beach will do as well. The challenge of disconnecting with the external chatter every day.
I will be looking for these opportunities so I can tap into that very feeling of being connected with something much bigger than myself.
When I look at the night sky I think about the stars in the southern hemisphere, about the night sky below the equator with the the Southern Cross shining bright. Star gazing will never be the same.
I make the coffee and let the dogs out. I listen for the birds and wish there were more of them, my lilac breasted roller...
I let the dogs in, smell the coffee brewing and switch on the TV, someone shot, someone hit by a car, someone wants to sell me something, I switch off the TV.
I drink my coffee and think about where I have been and how I can go back again.